No loOking Back

2005-09-12T01:45:00.000+08:00

haiz... me wads up with me... nothing to say.. just haiz.. i am a failure in many things i do... i seriously think so... how sad can tt be...

2005-06-30T23:50:00.000+08:00

Hello Von!

Shall update as i got nothing to do now. School was okay. Every week got tests and stuff. Kind of stressed up. Today just had my two lab tests. I think i need to do some reflection. Aint interested in what i am learning now. I really don't know what i want. Though i am kind of use to it le but something just keep changing my mind again and again. Sometimes i just hate going to school but school was kind of fun at times. I always wanted or hope to meet up with peeps. Just go out and have some fun i will be very glad already. But now everybody is busy doing their stuff including me. am having term test next week and i am damn stressed up now. I felt like there's a rock or something in my brain(jk). I just hate tests and exams. It's driving me crazy alright! My temper is getting from bad to worse. Think i need ice cream and more ice cream. I missed so so so many people. Hope i got time to meet up with them again.

Currently under depression...... Was pretty sad and angry just now over a small matter. I know i am damn petty la. But i just cant control my anger and stuff. Everything is out of my control now. I am feeling so don't know what to do la. I am sorry. I know i always make things difficult for you. It's fine with me if you get angry with me. I don't mind. Words unspoken.

2005-06-10T22:16:00.000+08:00

School started for like 2 weeks already. Its not fun without my bunch of friends. I really missed those alot alot alot. I missed my crapping partners and many many people. School was alrite actually. Went back to school last week i think. Met some of my teachers, haha they are so cute la. But didnt get to see Mr Choo. Did many many things the past few weeks and i cant remember it now. I had fun hanging out after school. Hope i can get to see xh again soon.

I am not feeling very normal recently. I don't know if i already adapt to the new environment or i am just forcing myself to do so. It sucks la. Everyday to me is like a routine. I never look forward to that. I always pray hard that weekends come as quickly as possible. That is the only period of time i can really enjoy myself. You can say i am fussy or whatever words that can describe me, i don't care. Cause my life is so screwed now. I wonder why did i choose this path which i don't even have any interest in. I thought i can try to like it but still after 2 weeks all i feel is stress and not fun at all.

2005-05-22T13:04:00.001+08:00

lalala~ I am back!
Wednesday thursday and friday was the orientation. It's boring okay! I should'nt go man. No comments on the 3 days of orientation. Last day of orientation went to tm with net net bf zx roy to have our dinner. Then shop around then go home le. Yesterday was STEPH birthday! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! Went to her dinner at Laguna country club. After that went off to Lipteng house as there was a gathering there. Had fun although i went there late. Gonna miss those peeps, i wonder when can we have a similar gathering again. Hope everyone will keep in contact ya! Happy Vesak Day!

2005-05-22T13:04:00.000+08:00

2005-05-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

A trip to sentosa.
Lolx.
Had lots of fun today.
Met jo and yenny don gl tf cl at bugis first.
Then went to harbofront to meet the rest(steph zr lyd angel xh shanna roy).
Then went to get some food then off we went to Sentosa.
And it started to rain.
Although quite disappointed with the rain but after it okay le.
No sun but rain also not bad la.
Quite cooling or maybe freezing=X
Played beachvolley ball and captain ball, damn funny and fun.
Then went into the water to play.
The seawater was so so salty lor.
Then after sometime, we went to delifrance to eat. Then went to bath.
Then saw this cute guy. I admit he is really cute but cute people see also enough le.
Then went to new zealand natural to eat ice cream.
Yum yum my fav! Then went off to the busstop to catch a bus back to harbofront.
Everyone was so tired already.
Oh ya, we went to underwater world, i mean outside.
Pretty cool ya! I wanna go in!
Hope still can go to sentosa again.

Anyway, tomorrow gonna wake up damn early so that i can get to school on time.
Hope the 3 days orientation would be fun, if not i cry ar!
Don't intend to go for 3 days but don't know can anot.
Hope tomorrow will be a better day!

Oh ya, i am so clumsy ya!
Damn damn damn!

2005-05-15T12:40:00.000+08:00

=D
Yesterday, went out to meet the 4g peeps at somerset mrt. Couldn't decide where to go. Then just sit at the mrt wait for ppl blah blah blah. Then went to heeren to have dinner at a korean restaurant. After that, went to cineleisure and then we decided to watch movie at ps. So we walked over and the guys left. The movie all single seats, so we went to esplanade to chill. Me chun von shanna and xh. Went to a cafe to eat and drink. Was chatting about many stuffs and they made me laugh like mad. Causing my stomach to hurt badly. Had fun with them. Really missed them. Was planning to have more of this outing so that we could chill out together. About 11 plus me shanna xh went to take cab. And for god sake, we waited for 1 and a half hour. Reached home pretty late, think is 1 30. Bathed and went to sleep, so bloody tired. Woke up every 3 hours or so, damn irritating.
I wanna watch coach carter, kingdom of heaven, the amityville horror blah blah blah.
Sch gonna reopen soon. Hope still can chill out with them. =D

2005-05-10T14:01:00.000+08:00

=D I am back from bangkok. Went there with my mum and her friends.

I don't like the weather there. It's making me so sick. Reached bangkok and we started shopping. There were too many things already, made me so blur that i didn't get the stuffs i like. So many things i wanna get never get. The food there was good. The shopping centres there were so big man. Really big. I think sg shopping centres got nothing much to shop but bangkok shopping centres were far too big to shop. Damn tired. The hotel room was big and nice and clean. Went to the half day tour on the second day. Took the boat and went to visit the temple. There's a part of the river which have alot of fishes there. And if u spotted white fishes among those black grey ones, you will be very lucky. This is what they say. Pretty cool ya? And i did spotted one=D Then continued to shop around the places. Oh ya, saw some cute guys there. There is this guy which looks as if he knows me and he smiles sweetly ya, so cute can! Enough of my nonsense. I am getting fatter and fatter man! Ate too much there already, fast food and stuffs. Had fun shopping there ba. Saw this puma bag which i kind of like it, wanted to get but mum say no. She said it looks so ugly and i should get something nicer. =\ But luckily i never insist on getting cause i knew i can get a better one.

There is also alot of mickey mouse stuffs there. Really cute and nice. Xh: you gonna love the place.

Came back yesterday night. So tired tired tired tired. Just woke up and its raining. The weather so nice to sleep. Supposed to go swimming with the gals but the weather haiz..

Enough of typing. Bye=D

2005-05-05T23:09:00.000+08:00

TOday's date is my favourite.

050505

o5o5o5

05May2005

Went to the chalet on Tuesday and wednesday. Met up with steph first then cat angel and lyd came to find us at pasirris. Went to eat then took the shuttle bus to Aloha loyang resort. Waited at the reception for them to come then off we went to the chalet. Was watching tv most of the time there. Then ppl started to come in. Had fun chit chating and playing. Went home at night and get some stuffs then off to the chalet again. Watched soccer and started chatting with hb about those bball days. I really missed the days alot alot. Around 5 me jo and yen walked out to downtown east hoping to get some food there as we were really hungry. But sadly, all the shops were closed. Went back to the chalet. Thanks to triton for the bread if not we will be so damn hungry. Then all of them went to slp. Then kw woke up. Then we walked around the place. Was feeling tired already casue we got nothing to do. Hoping that ppl will start waking up but in the end no one woke up. By the time they woke up, i cannot sleep le. Then went to downtown east for lunch. Then went back. Watched tv blah blah blah. Then went off at night.

TOday, went to meet zr then we walk around first then cat angel and lyd came le. Continued walking then decided to watch house of wax. Went off to bugis street. Then cat angel and lyd bfs came. After that went back to bugis for the movie. Damn, the movie is digusting. Can't stand the way they killed the ppl. So bloody. After the show, whatever things i see i also scared. Not gonna buy candles all that. It's freaking me out. Went home after that, watched tv. My mood now is so bad. Hope i did not offend anyone one. I am so down down down.....

2005-05-02T23:35:00.000+08:00

What a day today. Dud is a bad bad person. Very bad. I will take my revenge de. went out to pass him his birthday present. then shop around for presents for his 'gf' then went home after that. Dud mei you ren xin one. Laugh and laugh like nobody business. Beware of him!

Did some cooking today. quite fun. then went off to the airport to fetch my aunt back. Hohoho, she bought stuffs back for me. Yeah!=D

2005-04-24T23:33:00.000+08:00

I am back=D
When i got the mood to blog, i forgot what i want to blog already.
Erm, last few weeks was really really bored for me.
I stayed at home almost everyday.
Eat, Sleep, Watched tv= my daily routine.
So sick of life at that period of time.
Sleepless night.
Had being thinking alot the past few days.
I don't quite understand myself.
I am so disappointed in myself.
I don't want to be what i am now.

Did some cooking today. Fun fun fun=D
Watched 'lian ai xin xing' just now.
The show was really nice.
But the ending was a sad one.

I missed my friends and school.

2005-04-18T15:08:00.000+08:00

Not in the mood to blog=D

2005-04-04T00:47:00.000+08:00

Erm, yesterday went out with net and xh. Walked around suntec and went ms to slack. Ages since the three of us sit down and chit chat le. Reminds me of the past. Went aunt house. Went home. Started watching tv from 7 to 12. There is this show which reminds me of the past too. Erm, really enjoyed my day with net and xh. People always say look forward and not looking back. But I guess, past will always stick in our mind no matter what. Think the way xh blog about the past was really cute. Reminds me of all those fun we had, scolding mrs sam, playing hide and seek with mrs sam, crapping in class, playing all kinds of sports during pe lesson, go out after school, play like nobody business, take pictures with mates, busy studying for exams, basketball training, morning training, chalets, bbqs, class outings(X-men2), gals outing(darkness fall), hated pti, love the mac and sims drive market, mr choo bringing us to hike, and alot alot alot. I hope all this memories will stay. Thinking about the past, i felt so foolish so stupid. And now i am still the same. What changes now is, we all will be separated. What remains is, we will still be friends. It's only a matter if we will to make the effort to keep in contact with your school mates or class mates.

salt or sweet?

2005-04-03T00:19:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i had a nightmare. So scary man. Snakes all over me.
Stayed at home watching tv for the whole day.
I am so addicted to the show Stairway to heaven.
It's so nice man!
Boring!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SI ZHENG!

2005-04-02T00:05:00.000+08:00

I am so bored right now!
Haiz

Anyway, went out with net yesterday. Went to Bugis to shop around. Saw evil boy there too. Saw ChunHui too! So long never see her le. Then went off to Suntec. Saw my pri sch mate. Went to those toys shops. Was having fun in the shop. Playing with all those cute little soft toys. Saw so many cute stuffs. Went of to Koi garden after that. It's a quiet and nice place. Then went home after that. Watched tv. Now, I am so bored. No more nice show, no more vcd. Some times i just hate staying home. Always get scolding for nothing one. Hope later can go out. If not i gonna sleep my day away. Went job hunting yesterday too. But i wasn't really keen to work. Haiz, don't know what am i thinking. Don't work means no money. No money means no shopping. No shopping means no new stuffs. No new stuffs means boring. Haiz.....

2005-04-01T02:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY APRIL FOOL! Didn't blog for quite sometimes already.

Sunday:

Xiaohui BIRTHDAY! Hehe, had fun. Went to Sentosa. Took cable car there. Then took sky tower which was pretty cool too. Sentosa is a nice place i think. The beach was nice and clean. I loved it! So peaceful. But we were kind of out of place there cause we were wearing jeans=D Oh ya! We saw Xu Chun Mei too! She is so skinny! Me and Xh too picture with her. She is kind of pretty i think=D Then went to Fish & Co Glass house for dinner. Had a great day! Thanks XiaoHui!

Tuesday:

Went to the MBAFA(Mercedes-Benz Asia Fashion Award) with Xiaohui. It was really cool man. Those designers were really creative! Think both of us were the youngest there. Felt so out of place.Electrico was there to perform! They were so cool! Thanks to my cousin for the entry!

Wednesday:

Went to find net at her workplace. Ate lunch with her and then chatted with her till 6. Went home after that. Was kind of unhappy that day.

Thursday:

Went out with Jo! Haha, we spend 10$ only. Quite surprisingly for me. Saw this bag which i like alot but too bad no money no talk. Too bad so sad. Hope its still there! Went home, quite pissed off as i got scolding by my mum.....

Friday:

I am trying to be funny. Wanna make fun of my friends but i failed. So sad. Not fun at all! Going out with net later. Hope i can make fun of people. I am crazy i know=D
Wasn't in good mood for the past few days! But think I am fully alright now. I am crazy. I wanna go Sentosa!

Anyway,

4g peeps: Try to make urself free on the 3rd week of April.

I missed school.

I missed my friends.

I missed crapping in class with my few peeps.

I wanna watch a lot of movies.

I wanna buy the bag.

I wanna go zoo.

I wanna go WWW.

2005-03-23T22:45:00.000+08:00

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2005-03-22T00:26:00.000+08:00

Gonna know the posting soon in a few hours time.

It's kind of scary, just like taking O level results.

It's like when we were taking our PSLE results all that.

Must start to adapt new environment when you just adapted the old one. Maybe this is what we called life. To me, after the results of the posting come out, it's like everybody going separate ways again.

Good luck people=D

Anyway, Spongbob is a nice movie. Worth watching! Patrick star is so cute!

2005-03-19T23:05:00.000+08:00

So boring......

I love Wang Lee Hom!

He is so cute alright!

His songs quite nice also.

People support him=D

2005-03-18T20:26:00.000+08:00

What a tiring day... Went to adidas sale in the afternoon. Queued for more than 2 hours just for 2 pairs of shoes. The place was so packed with people. But still alright la. Today then i realised something: never go out alone especially those crowded places. So bored one. Was pretty unlucky too, mp3 no batt. So sian de..... Was feeling so hungry also as i didn't eat for the whole day. Went home immediately had my dinner but i am still hungry now....how! I don't like today!

2005-03-18T01:30:00.000+08:00

wazsup!

Something is really wrong with me today... Can't figure it out why...

Anyway, had a nice and relaxed day yesterday. Went out with steph. We walked from wisma to taka then to fareast then to heeren then to cine. Spent money again. I just love going out, it's better than staying at home and do nothing. Anyone wanna go adidas sale in expo tell me ya...

2005-03-16T00:02:00.000+08:00

Out of sudden, I missed school again. Missed all the fun and everything. I think i am thinking too much. My brain is not working well. My brain got so stressed up suddenly. Don't know what happen sia. Like got 'huan jue'(what is the spelling for that in english?) like that. Damn scary. Maybe i should do some meditation but i just can't. My mind just won't go blank. If i sit down and do nothing, my mind will start wandering. I guess i am lacking exercise. I wanna go blading, basketball, skating and alot alot of stuffs. But most of friends are working. Results on posting still not out yet. Haiz, wonder where i will be going and what i will be studying. Hope i won't regret. I hope i still got time after poly to fulfil my dream but this dream seems so far away from me. Why?

2005-03-15T23:48:00.000+08:00

Nothing to do today.... Watched vcd in the afternoon. What a sad show 'stairway to heaven'. This is the second time i watched the show. If you are feeling sad or unhappy, watch it. I am sure you will cry out de..... I got nothing better to do now, so i changed my blogskin..... Haiz, so boring sia.... Spongbob Squarepants and Son of the mask is showing now! I wanna watch it!

2005-03-14T02:12:00.000+08:00

I think i must plan out my life properly. So from tomorrow on, I must sleep early then wake up early. Play some sports. Eat healthy and regularly. Stop spending my money. Find a job. I hope i can do it. My voice just recovered but now it got worsen again. Realised some things after watching some tv shows. Those love stories were pretty sad. Fate bring people together. Are we suppose to fight for our own happiness or let fate decide for us?

2005-03-14T01:03:00.000+08:00

It's so bored. Life for me is kind of meaningless. It's just slacking and slacking and more slacking. I just don't want to live my life with no colours. In the past, I won't just stay home and do nothing. At least i will just get out of the house and go cycling or blading. But now, it's being months already and i am still not getting the motivation to do some sports or things i want to do. I wonder what is wrong with me. There are like tons of things i really love and want to do but now, I also don't know what i am. Wake up, eat, watch tv/ go out, sleep... My daily routine is like so boring so lifeless so not fun. I think i need to get a job so that i will have the motivation to keep doing things. When i got the feeling of working already, i regretted not accepting the job my mum offer and now i am jobless... So not in the mood to do anything....

2005-03-13T22:02:00.000+08:00

Sunday is so boring... Watched tv the whole day.

2005-03-12T21:23:00.000+08:00

Haiz, what a boring day. Went to the IT fair, the place was damn stuffy and blah blah due to hell lots of people. Can't even walk properly. Then went to shop around with my mum, saw quite a few things i like and my mum just don't wanna buy it. Went home. Got so pissed off just now. I wanna go out! Haiz, life is so boring man! I am so bored! Can't even speak out the whole day. My voice is not back yet. Haiz.....

2005-03-11T22:48:00.000+08:00

Erm, after staying home for 2 days finally i can go out liao... Went out with a group of friends. Xh finally off liao.. wahaha. Went to watch boogeyman, not worth watching but alright la. Then went bowling, so so so long never bowl liao... Quite fun.. Then went to play pool, i still think i cannot play pool whaha. After that went to eat, then go home le. Erm, quite a fun day but i miss net!

2005-03-09T19:56:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to watch B gals and guys basketball finals... After that went Orchard with Jo to shop. My whole body was aching like hell, don't know what the hell happen sia. Then shop till about 8 plus then go home liao. Finally bought the partrick star soft toy=D Btw NASS no 7 is kind of cute=D

Today i slept my day away... Having fever and sore throat... Hope i recover by tomorrow then can go out le=D I wanna watch boogeyman, pooh heffalump movie and son of the mask!

2005-03-07T22:08:00.000+08:00

So boring...

2005-03-06T23:55:00.000+08:00

Today so slacked.... Wanted to go cycling or blading but in the end also lazy. Haiz, I am getting more and more lazy liao. Think my stamina all gone liao... Sad case.. Gonna do some exercises soon. Anyone wanna exercise tell me ya? From what i read, it says that exercise can make us less stressful, more lively and blah blah blah...

Anyway, read my friend's blog. What she said was true... Never give up halfway... And i think we must move forward and fufil our dreams... I got a dream too.. So i am not gonna give it up so easily. Thanks ya!=D

2005-03-05T23:09:00.000+08:00

Today went parkway with mum...

Parkway food court food damn nice!

Then went shopping around blah blah blah...

I wanna go shopping again! There are many things i wanna get....

Yesterday i was having a very bad mood but i think through le...

I decided not to give up but to push it aside first.

I wanna go many many places!

I wanna do many many things!

I wanna live my life to the fullest!

2005-03-04T22:55:00.000+08:00

I am back blogging... It's been a long time since i blog. Was kind of lazy and didn't know what to blog even though i got lots of things to blog about.

Erm, many things happened last month. Can't really remember what is it... Got our results already and now i still have not decide on my courses yet. There is this course i wanted to study but i gave up and now i wanted to study multimedia technology but i am afraid i can't get in. Haiz... Why life is so troublesome? Can't we just stop making decisions? Why can't things go out way? A lot a lot of why(s).....

I have been going out almost everyday recently. Went to the poly to take a look at the courses and stuff. Went out to watch several movies. A series of unfortunate events is a nice movie or can i say it is a must see movie.... Hitch also not bad, very very funny. Went to watch it with steph today. Went shopping around orchard after that... Being spending money again.... haiz...

Anyway congrats B'div girls and boys! Jia you for the finals!

2005-02-17T00:38:00.000+08:00

I am back!!!!!

Erm, Happy New Year!
Went out with cat and steph on monday which is v day.
Haha, went to watch i do i do.
To me i think its not very funny but not bad.
Then today went out with jo and steph.
Went to watch seoul raiders, i think the movie quite nice la.
Not bad.
Then after that jo went back le.
Me and steph went shopping.
Haha, played with the toys in children department.
Quite fun leh.
Then continue to shop.
And i saw spongbob squarepants but don't have patrick star.....
After that went to buy ice cream.
steph spill her leftover ice cream because she missed the bin!
Then i will continue some other day.....=D
my blog is boring.........

2005-02-08T23:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Erm, yesterday went to meet cat then went to town.

Was walking round and round at fareast.

Saw a astroboy bag, so cute man.

After that met zr shanna roy hl.Then continue to walk round and round.

Then went to wisma, heeren.

Then i went off to find my mum at plaza singapura.

Carrfour was packed with people...

Went home after that.

Packed some stuffs then watch vcd.

Winter sonato= worth watching, damn sad

Today, wanted to go back to school

but in the end i was too tired to wake up

Today is new year eve....Hope xing de yi nian xing de kai shi....

Don't know if i can think that way...

But hey! Guys! Happy new year!

Shi shi ru yi! Gong xi fa cai!

Today lunch and dinner damn nice lor.

Love the steamboat.

No wonder i am getting fatter and fatter.

Anyway, Happy new year!

2005-02-05T22:41:00.000+08:00

Haiz...

Today so tired sia.

Never been so tired since like 1 mth ago.

Today went to the Japanese School with Chun and Bin.

Played Chanbara(i think it spells like tt) Something like kendo but lighter i think=

Haha, seriously its fun man.

Its like holding a stick and whack ppl(not really la).

My hand is aching now....

Just woke up from my slp.

Slept at nine and i thought now is like 3 or 4 am

But it turned out to be so early...

Went town after the class...

It's packed...

Saw this little 5 year old boy playing drum...

So cool man...

He is so so cute!

Went home after that...

Quite a fun day or i can say i never had fun for quite some time already.

I think i need to start exercising.

Been slacking for quite some time already, think i need to do some exercise.

Anyone wanna go bball-ing? Give me a call or msg me ya?

Thinking a few days back...

I am so bloody selfish!

I am so inconsiderate alright!

I don't know how to think!

I really hope everything is fine!

I am really really sorry!

2005-02-02T22:34:00.001+08:00

Back blogging again. Seriously, blogging kills my time. Haha, today woke up late. Watched vcd till evening then went to meet steph at heeren then we go find jo and lyd. After that meet zhenru huibin shanna and iris at NYDC to eat. Damn! The food not as nice as last time already. After that we went shopping. Bought a shirt again. Seems like i am spending almost everyday. Must stop liao. After that went far east then went home. Sorry lyd! Hope its not pain ya? hehe
Oh ya, lyd ask me blog de. Zr wore heels and she fall at the escalator.hehe. ps ar zhenru.
And also, thanks gl papa for helping me with the blogskin.
And also, once again HAPPY BIRTHDAY zhenru!

2005-02-02T01:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Zhen Ru!

I am thinking too much i guess.

Dud was right.

He told me that i can't continue slacking.

It won't do me any good.

I think so too. Cause the things he listed down i did thought of that before.

Thanks dud.

Life not getting any better recently.

Perhaps for me only.

I think i am getting lazy.

I wanna PLAY BASKETBALL, but i am lazy.

Damn!

Think i know what's bothering me, but i just can't stop it.

hate it hate it hate it!!!!!

One good thing is:

Xh finally got her off day and it's tomorrow. Finally can meet her and off to town, queensway many many things we wanna do.

2005-02-01T01:22:00.000+08:00

Today, met up with cat and off we went to orchard to shop for clothes.

First thing i did was to get my ice cream.

It was nice shopping with cat. She is funny lor.

My mood got better after that.

Met up with zr. Then after that we go Bugis to shop.

Met up with angel, iris and lydia. Went home after that.
Just finish chatting with xh and net.

Didn't chat with them for days.Talked about many things and i realised....

I don't think my mood will be any better tonight.

How i wish i can keep myself occupied every min every second and there won't be any chance for me to think.

Moral of the day(told by xh): Hopefully the best is not yet over, but yet to be. I think it was a pretty nice phrase.

Hope to see xh and net soon!

2005-01-31T13:03:00.000+08:00

Thursday

Went to meet Netty and tingx for lunch.
After that went to Anglican High to see basketball match.No supporters there.
I am supposed to support our school team, but i kind of like the CCS 7 hao.
He is so 'zai' lor, but too bad he foul out during the 4th quarter.
Anyway, Mjr did win the match. Congrats.
After that, stayed to watch another match then went off to Bugis to shop.
Then went home after that.

Friday

Nothing much today.
Stucked at home, and I slept my day away.
Damn! I don't like to stay at home.
I wanna go out but i am kind of lazy and most of my friends are working.
Since i don't intend to work, I will just slack my day away lor.
I am kind of depressed recently.
Don't know for what reason, i am easily pissed off and irritated.

Saturday

Early morning went to aunt house to do cooking.
Mum was really busy that day.
My mum hates going chalet but she got no choice as it's my sister 21st birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS!
My mum is so funny lor, she pour out all the charcoal onto the pit and she thought we could start fire that way.
Make me laugh like mad.That day was real busy but quite fun though=D
Supposed to be on diet but i can't resist leh.
Die le la! Fat fat fat!!!!!

Zhen Ru's BBQ=D

Yesterday, met steph at 3 then we went shopping le.
Went body shop and saw shanna(my deer=D)
After that went to shop around parkway.
Then went to eat and met up with some of the guys.
We then went off to the pit.
Chatted, crapped all that.
Went to the rock with iris.
It was damn relax.
I love it.
Chatted with iris then we went back to the pit again.
After that jo cat they all arrived le.
Started eating, chatting.
Yesterday was kind of like 2g gathering.
Quite fun and nice chatting with all of them.
At about 4 plus i went home le.
Stayed awake till 6 then slept.
Was dieing without music and luckily i found some batteries which can last me a few hours.
Mood was bad for don't know what reason.
Was supposed to go Johor with mum but in the end she went with her friends=
I wanna eat ice cream! I need ice cream!
Later maybe going out with cat they all.
Hopefully shopping can make my mood better.

lala~

2005-01-22T13:05:00.000+08:00

Didn't blog for ages. Erm, life isn't any better. I stop working already, so i got to find some things to do to keep me occupy. At first, i kept sleeping at home. Skipped breakfast at that. Then now, i keep going out. Went to town, nyp, np, tm blah blah blah. My life is so boring. I hated it so much. I wanna go shopping but most people are working.

Watched meet the fockers with netty on thursday. Not very funny i think. Okay okay only.

stop blogging le. Not in the mood to blog.

2005-01-01T21:17:00.000+08:00

I am back again. Mood not as good as yesterday. I kind of miss yesterday so so much. It was really so fun.

Erm, today is a whole new year. A new beginning for me also. I kept telling myself to have a good start this year. I try to stop thinking about things i don't wanna remember but it's just so difficult to do so. I don't know why. But i really hope this year is gonna be a good year. I already threw half of my unhappiness away. But i brought another half here to 2005. Maybe life is just full of unhappiness. But who cares! I gonna live my life to the fullest. I am not gonna waste my time. I wanna learn new things. I wanna take up courses to keep me occupied. I gonna work to feed my pockets as i am a spendthrift. I am not gonna be the old lousy me! I wanna be something else.

Anyway, I really really wanna thanks many many people.

I wanna thanks the 2g^o2 peeps. Thanks ya! Must go out together more often. I love you guys. Missed the days in chalet bbq and many many things=D Take care ya!

3g-4g Really miss the days crapping in class playing shouting running around hiding from teachers blah blah blah. alot alot! A very very lively class. No regrets=D

My friends! Thanks for all those advices given. Every single advice makes a difference. Thanks=D Even just a Hello See ya or a Bye is good enough=D Thanks thanks=D

I got tons and tons of things to type but i will just stop here. People! Stay happy and forget about those unhappiness ya! Let this year be a great and wonderful year ya? Once again Happy New Year=D Take care Peeps!
haiz, just now was chatting online till i cry. But i have sort up my feelings le. Feeling better now. I really think we should cherish what we have before we lose it. It's a very very sad feeling. Anyway, i really wanna thx him. Thanks for telling me ya! It maybe true or maybe not true but i still believe it. At least i know the reason i thought i will never know. Maybe if you lie to me i also don't mind le. At least i can stop thinking of that le. I will accept my fate. Thanks so so much.

2005-01-01T03:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Lolx. Went for the PROM night. It was great i tell you! Really fun man.

Dance shout sing play like mad! Now i got no voice le. I think this is the best ever new year eve celebration. I never had so much fun before.

The guys were handsome okay! Really! They wore suits which looked great on them. Then got the MJR idol. Our winner is HuiMin(yeah!!) The live band was great too. Had lots and lots of fun. Taking pictures with many ppl chit chatting.....

And here's our
PROM KING: Roy
PROM QUEEN: XiaoHui
PROM PRINCE: ZhenHong
PROM PRINCESS: Stephanie
PROM BACHELOR: Triton
PROM BACHELORETTE: ZhenRu

Hope i didn't remember wrongly.

So long didn't enjoy myself le. I am so so happy.

Lolx, anyway a NEW YEAR is here. So HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone. Start everything a fresh. Lead a happy and happy life ya! I hope all this fun never end. I hope everyday will be full of fun and laughter.

Once again! HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone! Gonna miss lots of things in 2004! But here i come 2005!

Not forgetting! Thanks ZhenRu Stephanie and all other people for making this PROM a successful one. Thanks ya!

Thanks ZhenRu friend also. For fetching me home. Thanks alot alot alot. He is really a nice guy man! Thanks=D

Take care people =D

Gonna blog again tomorrow=D

2004-12-26T20:29:00.000+08:00

Last Christmas

Last Christmas I gave you my heart,
But the very next day, you gave it away.
This year, to save me from tears,
I'll give it to someone special.

Last Christmas I gave you my heart,
But the very next day, you gave it away.
This year, to save me from tears,
I'll give it to someone, I'll give it someone, special

Someone... oooh...

Once bitten, and twice shy,
I keep my distance, but you still catch my eye.
Tell me, baby,
Do you recognize me?
Well, it's been a year,
It doesn't surprise me.

Happy Christmas.
I wrapped it up and sent it,
With a letter,
Saying "I love you", I meant it.

Now I know,
What I fool I've been.
But if you kiss me now,
I know you'll fool me again.

Last Christmas I gave you my heart,
But the very next day, you gave it away.
This year, to save me from tears,
I'll give it to someone special.

Last Christmas I gave you my heart,
But the very next day, you gave it away.
This year, to save me from tears,
I'll give it to someone special. (special) Special! Someone!

A crowded room,
Friends with tired eyes.
I'm hiding from you,
And your soul of ice.

My God, I thought you were someone to rely on,
Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on.

A face on a lover,
With a fire in his heart.
A man undercover,
But you tore me apart.
Oooh.. now I've found a real love,
You'll never fool me again

Last Christmas I gave you my heart,
But the very next day, you gave it away.
This year, to save me from tears,
I'll give it to someone special.

Someone!

Guilty feet have got no rythm,
Guilty feet have got no rythm,
No no! Ooh-ooh.
Now I found a real love will never fool Me again!

Someone!

2004-12-26T20:19:00.000+08:00

Eminem- Mocking Bird

Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me

Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
When I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it
Laney uncles crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up his daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream

Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upperlip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We fear how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright

It's funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broke into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like it
And you and Laney were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Laney I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment

And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'd go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't fuck with dad (haha)

2004-12-26T20:14:00.000+08:00

Yellowcard- Only one

Broken, this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you, so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go, so dishonestly
Leave a note for you, my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

2004-12-26T19:19:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas

Hey! I am back blogging. Yesterday was christmas. Merry Chirstmas everyone=D

24/12 25/12

Slacked at home till 7 plus at night and get ready to go out to have fun. At first i didn't want to go out as i felt this year there isn't any christmas atmosphere. Went to meet Lyd first at tpy then went Somerset to meet Cat Jo and Ken. Then we went to walk around Taka, Funfair then back to Cineleisure to meet Angeline, Weiting, Janet. THe crowd was WOO lor! ALot of people man. Quite fun also. After that nothing to do le then slacked.

Then saw gl they all in Cineleisure also. After that another group which is those bball boys came. Then they started spraying and spraying. Lyd was attacked again and again. Lolx.

After that, Angel netty and weiting left with the bball peeps then the rest of us including Iris=D went to meet gl they all. There were 20 of us watching KungFu Hustle. I don't really like the show. Cat and Jo fell asleep while watching. Not worth watching i guess but the effects were good.

After that went Mac. Its already 4 i think. Then after that we continue walking and walking. Actually wanna go play pool de but then they closing le. So we continue to walk and walk and walk. Then walked until 6 plus, we left them then go find angeline they all le. Then after 7, went Haig Road to play bball. Hehe, quite fun la! So long never play le. Around 9 plus then went off.

Went home sleep eat then went out to meet Zhenru roy and Maojie. Then went to work at Roxy hotel. The uniform was funny la. Then started with briefing all that. Then started working. I very blur man. Always forget this forget that. Accidently poured the tea onto the chair. Heng the women not angry sia. Then after everything must cleaned up the place till 11.30 then can go off. Went to get our pay then off we go. Went to eat with Maojie and Zhenru. After that went home le.

Today, went to Aunt house. Slept and eat whole day. Mood wasn't good at all. Quite pissed also. Shall stop blogging le.

2004-12-19T22:30:00.001+08:00

Smile Smile Smile

Didn't blog for few days le. Erm, On thursday, went out with netty and ah xiao go orchard walk walk. So long never see them le. Kind of missed the days in school, go out play, chat chit. We went to see the christmas lighting, then took pictures. Stop by to watch this band playing for charity. The guys were so cool. I really wanna learn electric guitar man. I really admire them. So cute. After that, went home le.

On friday, after work rush home. Then went to our school Chinese Orchestra Concert. Saw many friends=D At first, I was pretty bored, but after that i really like the performance. The songs they played were nice. I really admire them. I long to learn those instruments but i always gave up halfway. Therefore, i can only listen but not play. After the concert, went home then go out again. Went to Merlion. Then we started walking from there towards changi. von chunhui roy gl zhenhong tf hl zx ashley daryl mr choo were present=D Some of them started walking from Boonlay. Then we continued. Then some of them went home. Mr choo also went home cause he is really tired. Then we continued to walked until tanah merah then sat down and chit chat gossip. By then, only left zx zh roy gl chunhui von. Then crap till 6 plus then went home le. So tired. Immediately reached home, bath then sleep. Slept for two hours then off to work. After that went out shopping with my mama. Her birthday and yet i am shopping for myself. So guilty. After that eat le then go home le.

Today watched vcd whole day. Finally finished watching the show "At the dolphin bay". The ending was a happy one. Overall the show was pretty sad. The small boy and girl were so cute so cute. See le will cry de. Love isn't easy. After watching it, kind of understand more about love. Although the story a but like fairytale but it was really very nice. Watch it and you will understand it.

Ages since my entry is so lengthy.

2004-12-12T21:01:00.000+08:00

Bored Bored Bored

Today is so bloody boring. Or i can say everyday is bloody boring. Whole day watching v c d. Haiz, why all the shows all so sad one? Why both of them in love but cannot be together? Why must there be so many obstacles in life? Why we humans cannot live happily every single day?

Why we humans always do things that will make us regret? Why? So many Whys???

Sometimes i think i am very dependent. Just like a small kid. So childish. Unkind. So attitude. So many so. Sometimes i hope that every second or minute or hour, there will be someone to give me advices or listen to me. But one must be independent. Cannot always rely on people. I realised how immatured i am. Erm, I think i really don't understand myself. Someone told me that. At first I disagree with it. But after some days i realised that it is true that i don't understand myself.

Stop crapping le.........

=D

2004-12-11T20:43:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was super boring. There is nothing for me to do during work. So bored. After work, went to Victoria Theater to watch Peter Pan. Kind of boring at first but then second part was nice. Peter Pan super cute sia. So sweet=D

Today, meet Xiao hui first then went to Tiong Bahru cause i wanna cut hair. Finally i got my hair cut le. A bit weird weird and so ma fan one. Thanks Xh=D for waited so long.

Anyway, yesterday on the bus i saw this really cute guy. The way he dress was cool man!
Yeah, tomorrow can go out le=D

2004-12-09T21:15:00.000+08:00

Boring Days

Argh! I hate it man! Its so boring. I hate working! Haiz. Can't go out to play. I wanna go out!

Anyway, just changed my template. I love this show man. Worth watching. Very touching, sad and cute.

2004-12-02T20:11:00.000+08:00

Erm, this whole week so bloody tired. Got to work. I hate it! But for the sake of money i got to do so. Everyday not enough sleep. Haiz, making me feeling tired and easily irritated.

Didn't get to watch the movies i wanna watch. The Incredibles, Shutter, The Polar Express. Haiz, i wanna watch man! I wanna watch Blade also. I wanna play basketball also. Butti came back from Paris le. But i no time to play bball with her. Haiz, i wanna play also!

I wanna play like nobody business but i have to work. Haiz.

Anyway, TAUFIK won yesterday. Quite happy. Hehe, i really think he sang really well yesterday. Though i also like Sly but i like Taufik more. The both of them are good man.

Haiz, i am easily pissed off and i having unstable mood. Netty and Xh sorry ya!

WooHoo!

2004-11-26T11:59:00.000+08:00

YEAH! O level finally finish le!

Yesterday just came back from chalet. Quite fun. Check in on Tuesday. Bbq-ing, Raining, Eating..... Then went up to play games all that. Then decided to go cycle. Cycle until butt pain sia. Then go back rest then went to cycle again to watch the sunrise. Damn! No sunrise to see one. Then cycle back rest le. Then, some of the guys went back home. Then i can't sleep so went down to walk walk. Then played some games, slacked until nothing to do le then go sleep. Was pretty tired then.

2nd day went to Escape with the girls. Was pretty fun as i never been there before. Played from 12 to 6 i think. Kept playing again and again. Then went back Bbq again, watch tv. Then went up to crap. Crap for hours then decided to play cards. Started with the suan ming, that was pretty accurate for some of us. THen some of us was sleeping and the rest i dunno le. Then when i woke up, i saw someone at the stairs. Kind of scary though. Can't recognise who is she so went back to dream again. hehe=D Then i morning then know she is Shanna=D Hehe. Then yesterday morning went home le. Reach home bath le then sleep until evening time. Argh! Having Sorethroat and Flu. Think is soaked in the rain then like that de.

Anyway, this chalet is fun! Quite nice to play! Take care ppl!

!!!!!

2004-11-15T15:48:00.000+08:00

So bored at home. Slacking and slacking.....

Then..... Heard some shoutings downstairs. Saw a girl crying. What the hell lor. think is his Bf or what. Didnt want to care about her and kept shouting at her. Then he even walked towards her and kick her! Bloody hell man! Then he used the helmet and threw at that girl!!!! When he drive away that time, the girl chased at him and he nearly knock her down lor! He didn't even care and drove away!!! Sucks man! So bad so bad!

=D

2004-11-12T19:31:00.000+08:00

Cool man! Yesterday went to the Motorshow with Dad. Those cars were so cool. There is one that can travel on land and sea. Damn! So cool. I wanna own one! Hehe.

O level is ending soon. But i am already slacking now. Everyday eat, sleep, watch tv never study. There is this show title Stairway to Heaven i think. It's so sad man! Ppl after exams go watch it.

Went to watch Shark Tale with Netty, Tingz, Weiting on Tuesday. The shark is so cute. Worth watching. Feeling sad? Watch it!

haiz~

2004-11-06T20:55:00.000+08:00

~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERRI AKA SMALL BIRD!!=D HAPPY SWEET !6!=D

~ HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JUNTING AKA EVIL BOY!=D

I hate my life! I hated everything! Just for today! I hated everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haiz, sucks man! My mum went overseas and my dad not back yet. I am home alone. Sometimes i really hope to be alone but now i hate it! I rather my mum nag and nag at me. Haiz... Ever since yesterday night, my mood ain't good at all. Luckily there are ppl online to chat with. Sometimes i really wonder who the hell is me?! Perhaps I am all along in bad mood. Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!

All right! I am okay after typing...... Erm, don't know why i bother to blog man! I am like blogging nonsense! Anyway, I realised i am back to normal again. After 1 year, I have woke up and decided to face the reality again. 1 year passed so fast and that's a good sign. Now, inside of me is empty. I no longer want to think of anything. I am back to start afresh. My brain need some rest too.

Realised I am not easy going man. I got a habit, a habit that can't be change. Ahaha! Anyway, feel so good after blogging. Sorry Xh and netty ar! My mood always not good.

I want to shout it out: " I am NOT A MONSTER OR WHAT! Am I Really so BAD so HORRIBLE so SCARY?!" Ahaha, I will stop blogging le.

Study Hard Ppl! O level is ending soon! 2 weeks more!

Hehe=D

2004-10-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

I will cut everything short. More detail see Janet's blog lolx=DToday my birthday. Early morning went tuition with Xiao hui then after that went to meet netty ah red norman weiting and zx to eat Kenny Roger. Then while eating, Jo and Steph came=D(thanks alot!~Surprised) Then after that Xh netty Jo and Steph, we went to watch ouijia board. Lolx. I am really noisy man! I kept shouting even though it was not scary. After that Jo and Steph and Xiao Hui went home le. Then me and Netty go Bugis take neoprints. Then after go meet Dude then go home le..

Want to thanks Netty XiaoHui Jia Yang, Jo Steph, Si Zheng, Zhen Xiang Ah red, Angeline Cat Lydia Zhen Ru Iris and Weiting for the presents. Thanks alot! Also thanks to those who msg me. Thanks thanks. Sorry if if i missed out ur name~ SOrry. Really thanks! People Thanks=D

Today really enjoyed myself~ Thanks people=D THanks Thanks Thanks=D

Tired Day~

2004-10-19T22:07:00.000+08:00

Erm, Yesterday was the Practical for Science. I think i made a mess out of it. I don't know the Chemistry part. Also it was Weiting's Birthday=D Happy Belated Birthday Wei Ting=D! After Practical went to Bugis to eat PastaMania. Kind of sick of it after eating it for weeks i think. Then saw Aurelia they all eating. Then we go walk walk. Then went to eat ice cream. Love it! So long never eat le. Then went home after tt.

Today whole day at home. Did study but also slacking. Staying at home is very boring but no choice must study. Just now went tuition. So tired man. I wanna sleep. Anyway, Happy Birthday Ah Woo!=D Today my dad is so cute. He bought me a pig. Damn cute lor! Even my mum loved it too. It has been so long since my dad bought me toys=D

Hope tomorrow no need stay at home~

Graduation Day

2004-10-16T22:11:00.000+08:00

Haiz, Today is a sad day. I will make everything short.

Moring went to school. Last chance to be with the class le. Lolx, so fun ma. Went to the hall for speech and singing school songs all that. It is like, first time i sang school song proudly and sadly. For the first time i love Mdm Heng so much. For the first time I love this school so much=D Don't know why also. Can't bear. So touched when watching the Video. Really touched. I want to Hug Ah Choo but cannot leh. Not Fair one. Didn't get to see Mrs Yong no chance to talk pics with her.

Today, we were all running around busy taking pics with friends and teachers. So fun but sad. 4g^04 took lots of pics! Really alot. I will really miss 2go2 friends=D, and 4g^04 people. They rock my world. Love them alot. Without them, this 4 years will be so wasted=D Missed all the fun and everything.

After everything, went Bugis with Netty and Xh. Went Bugis to eat then off to Orchard to see shoes then play play walk walk. Then go home. Finished revising Chemistry Practical. So scared. Hope I don't spill my chemicals=D

Anyway, peeps! All take care k? Jia You! Study Hard! All The Best and Happy Graduation!=D

The End

CrossRoads

2004-10-15T19:10:00.000+08:00

Erm, so long never blog le. Kind of lazy but since Chin Hang say i never blog then i blog lor=D Anyway, nothing much happen recently.

Start with Wednesday. Went to TM with Cher. Er ren shi jie wiht her. She is so crappy lor. We crap all the way from school until MRT. Damn tired. With all those lame stuff like 'Xiao niao you da nao' and 'Da niao you xiao nao'. We were rushing for 2.35 movie and we made it on time. Watched Wimbledon! This show is nice. Worth watching. Not boring but interesting. Very funny and a little sad. Don't know how to describe. Watch it if you haven't=D

Thursday, marking day so no school. Slacked whole day at home. Did some revision and packed my room. Then went to tuition after that.

Today, didn't want to go to school but since there is Geography lesson so i decided to go. Mrs Yong was really nice. I really like her alot. She gave everyone a card and a chocolate. Even thought the message in the card is all the same, but it's really touching=D After her lesson then most of us left school. Me, Xh and Netty went to have breakfast then went home le. Wanted to rest de but in the end watched TV with my aunt. Bloody hell, that show is damn touching, super sad. Watched for about 3 hours++ Die ar! Supposed to study but i just can't stop myself as the show was really nice.

Tomorrow, will be our Graduation Day! Erm, seriously kind of sad about it. Anyway, I will missed everyone de. Tomorrow must take lots of pictures!

Erm, reflection. Really slacked alot recently. Though got study but it's like abit only. Where is my motivation? Who can give me motivation? No one! I must really pushed myself now! Right now! No time to Waste! Less than 3 weeks and O level will be here le. I must really make use of my study leave to do revision seriously and properly. For the sake of myself.

Got to go do some work le. Take care people. Study hard. Back blogging tomorrow=D

!

2004-09-28T18:41:00.000+08:00

Erm, i am truly disappointed in myself expecially today. How i wish i could just disappear for time beings. I really hurt it. I can stand it at times. I am giving myself too much unneccessary stress. Anyway, thanks XiaoHui and Janet. I know what both of you trying to tell me. I will be someone different from what i am now after a few days of thinking. Different in thinking i guess. I am trying to be optimistic already but something is lacking. I will find out what it is.

I am not gonna let my Prelims result affect me maybe a little. I am gonna Work hard for my O level from now on. Though time is short but still i have to. I don't want to regret. I don't want to disappoint myself once again. So people, if possible, ask me to shut up when i talk in class, ask me to listen when i day dream. I will be really grateful to you if you do that. I can't play anymore maybe once in 2 weeks or something.

I really don't want to disappoint myself! So i guess i won't be blogging until necessary.

Cinderella Story is worth watching

2004-09-22T20:54:00.000+08:00

Today so good, no need go school. So went out with Xh and Net. Went to watch Cinderella Story at PS. THe show is really nice. I think it's like sad, touching then happy ending. I like the guy Michael Murray(don't know how to spell). He is cute. Cool too. The show can make u cry man. Both of them are so sweet. It's really a fairy tale man. We can't see it in reality. So sad. It's almost the same as the story we read when we were small. Cute. I think it's worth watching a second time.

After that went to Far East shop and bought my bracelet. Then went to Heeren. Saw the girl from the show The Next Big Thing. She is kind of cute. Then went to take pictures with Net as Xh went home le. Haiz, today never saw that Benjamin Ng (so cute). Saw this guy i think he is so cool. Though he is very skinny but he is simply so cool and cute.

Think tomorrow gonna get back my results le. Haiz, gonna be real disappointed. Hope tomorrow got PE. Don't think can go out so often already. Os is getting nearer le. Take care

Happy=D

2004-09-21T22:05:00.000+08:00

Haha, prelims finally, officially over le. So happy. So went out whole afternoon today. Went out with 2g gals. Went to Cineleisure to watch The Ghost. It's a nice show. Really, i never like horror movie except that. Althought i was shouting all the way but really, it's nice. Some parts i never watch but still nice la the show. Then went shopping after that.

Know what! I saw the Benjamin Ng. Bloody hell, he is cute. Really cute man. He is in heeren. Cute! Cute! Cute! Then after that some of the gals went back then left me steph and zr then we went to Far East walk walk. Saw the barcelet again. Gonna go get it tomorrow. Also saw Xh and Yenny. Shop too much liao. Leg pain like shit. But it was fun i can say. I really like that Puma Shoes but it is no longer there anymore. Sad. Saw another shoes which is purple in color. So cool.

Must start to save money to spend le. Tomorrow going out with Xh and Net to watch movie. Cinderella Story. Hope the show is still on. Still have to go tuition tomorrow at night. Bored.

Anyway, today was fun. He is so cute=D

Haiz...

2004-09-20T17:37:00.000+08:00

Erm, tomorrow last two papers then prelims over le. Haiz, don't know is a good sign or bad. Anyway, today went out with Xh and Net. Went to Orchard. So long never go le. Then go shop for hours till 4 plus. Ah net so ma fan de. Search for clothes so long hor?=D lolx. Then after that went home. Haiz, tomorrow still got two papers, sucks de! Haven't watch Cinderella Story, hope can watch it soon. haiz, no time to slack but i am still slacking. Anyway, So happy. Bought Blue's tour edition CD le. But still disappointed cannot go to their concert.

Stop blogging le. Back tomorrow=

Haiz

2004-09-18T22:20:00.000+08:00

Erm, so bored. Morning went to relative's wedding..... Then came home slacked till dinner time go out eat. Now alone at home. Mum and Dad went to wedding dinner. Haiz. I am bored like hell man. Don't know what the hell am i thinking. Sot de. Kind of like Machi songs recently thought some i don't understand. But the songs made me felt more relaxed. I need so brain washing as i can't still it. If possible, I don't mind some smart people change their brain with me(Argh! I am crapping) Monday still got physics paper and now i am still blogging. I did try to study. Though some of the things i understand le, but still stop studying le. Think of getting back Prelims results makes feel worse. Haiz, Stop blogging and won't be blogging until Tuesday night which is end of prelims already. Hope i got the motivation to study later.

Argh!

2004-09-17T20:32:00.000+08:00

Didn't blog for days due to Prelims. Haiz, great disappointment in myself. I am really careless. Today's A maths paper was difficult for me. As for Geography, I am really careless to choose the wrong question. I studied development yet i choose the question on environment. Haiz, I am sure i will do badly for my Prelims. The past few papers, also die la. Don't know why I am so careless this time. Anyway, still got 3 more papers and that's the end of the Prelims and it means that O level is approaching soon. Haiz, motivation is back due to this Prelims which i know i will do badly. Time is running so quickly that there isn't much time for us. It's like before you knowing it, the exams started and ended. Stress is everywhere.

Recently, watched this show which i think is kind of nice and sad. There is this girl who love the guy alot but she dare not express her love. All she do is hid at a corner, watched him secretly. So one day, the guy realised he love that girl too. Then they kind of ended up together but this guy is really bad. He dare not admit she is his girlfriend as the girl's leg was abnormal. Something like that. Don't really know how to type it out. But all i can say is, the girl is always suffering. So poor thing. Anyway, this is only a show=

Argh! I want to go to Blue's concert. But i am broke. Haiz, so sad. Gonna miss this concert. There are so many movies i wanted to watch but i got no time or others already watched it. A busy month. So many things to do, must study hard cannot slack. Play less, talk less, work more. Haiz. Don't know what exactly i am blogging. Just crapping.

Ahaha! He is so Cute!=D

2004-09-11T22:00:00.000+08:00

Lolx, watched the Channel U show "The next big thing". That Benjamin Ng so Cute. But a bit weird. Argh! Cute!

Anyway, went to cut hair today with Janet. Then went to Bugis to meet XiaoHui for lunch. Then went home. Prepared to watch that show. Ahaha, he won. I am mad.

Won't be blogging until next Friday due to Prelims. Haiz, die sia. Haven study. Don't know whether tomorrow last minute work can help anot? Anyway, Good luck people for your prelims! Study hard and Don't slack le=D Take care!

He is Cute!=D

Haiz

2004-09-10T19:09:00.000+08:00

Haiz, today unable to attend RV lesson. haiz, bored sia. Stay home whole day. At first can't even walk properly. Luckily that medicine save me. After that, wanted to go school. But it the pain kills me again.

By right can enjoy last day of school holidays de. But in the end i spent it at home. Saded. Wanted to go out but can't. Haiz. Nothing much to blog today. Whole day never study. Die! Tonight die die also must study liao. If not i gonna fail my prelims until very 'jia lat'.

Count Down to O level: 54 Days

Getting nearer and nearer=(

Boring~

2004-09-09T16:01:00.000+08:00

Erm, now blogging at aunt house. So bored. Went to school today for A maths lesson. Not bad la, at least not very boring. After that me and XiaoHui went to Singapore Post to eat and meet up with Janet and Wei Ting. After that both of us went home le. Nothing much to blog about.

Yesterday, me and Xiao hui went to school for Maths lesson. In the end, didn't attend as many of them didn't go. Then we went to Cineleisure to eat BK. Then slacked there awhile then went to Heeren shop shop. Then went home after that. Boring.

Going tuition later. Haiz, sianz.... Hope today's tuition don't drag. Haiz, got to miss Singapore Idol again.

Days to O level exam: 55 more Days!!!!!

Long Long Time=D

2004-09-07T19:18:00.000+08:00

Erm, so long didn't blog le. Due to my laziness and also my computer sickness. Sad. Erm, let's see. Many things happen. Can't recall much.

Last friday i think, Cat-Fight with Xiao hui. WoOo, very violent man. In new block also fight before. Now also want to fight. Lolx. She is strong man. I must admit that. That Janet, only sit there and see. Never help us or stop us.=D

Then, went Parkway BK to study. So cold man. Then went off to roxy square, blah blah blah. Then waited for my book. Thanks Shifu=D Ah net pei me wait also. Thanks=D Then i took bus to bedok then change bus go home. So tired man! Then slept in the bus. Haiz.

Sometimes life is very boring. Don't know why? Haiz, think too much yesterday but thanks to.... Trusts is very important ba, without that everything won't work well le. Really hope everything will be fine. But nothing is gonna be perfect.

O level is round the corner. I am so slacked, no motivation. Haiz, it's like we have onli one and a half months left. Argh, regret why last time never study properly. Only know how to play play play=(

Anyway, Hope everyone is happy. It seems that so many people are feeling down. Really hope you guys can cheer up. Maybe it's not as easy as what i say but everything will have a solution de. So think positively=D

End here then, finally can blog le, but i got nothing much to blog about. Erm, today, nice date=D

2004-09-04T22:03:00.000+08:00

2004-08-22T10:08:00.000+08:00

Erm, yesterday went to school for lesson le then go eat with Shanna, ChunHui, XiaoHui and Janet. Then went to Geylang East library to study. Study till 12 plus then i went home. Went to Cousin house in the afternoon to slack. Then went swimming finally. Then start bbqing until 10 plus. Then went home le. Nothing much. Slack whole day. Die. Haiz..... boring!

2004-08-20T22:38:00.000+08:00

Erm, so long never blog le. i see spider webs everywhere=\ Anyway, this whole week isn't a good one for me. I don't enjoy it. Super boring, tiring and all sorts of feelings. Bloody headache make me lost my temper to my aunt and mum. Damn guilty man. Argh, i try not to lose my temper le.

Don't know what to blog leh. Too many things to blog. Firstly, Os getting nearer and nearer and seriously my motivation is gone again. Argh, help help!!!!! School wasn't nice at all. I don't enjoy it. Dislike A maths lesson. Felt bored recently during the lessons. Whatever it is, don't care la.

Jay's songs are nice. But the more you listen the sadder you will become( i think so la).

I am blogging rubbish. So don't take a look at this. Thank you. Argh, Stressed. Enjoy my tuition, though a bit bored but the people there not bad la. Missed yang guang. Haiz, don't know when then can go outdoor play until mad. Missed many things. Like my friends, and basketball(a little), blading, swimming and more and more and more. Haiz, i really wanna go outdoor. But i really want to study.

Haiz, my mood was terrible recently. Get irritated easily. Feel sadness everywhere. I sot dao le. Maybe i missed too much outdoor, thats the only reason i can think of. Anyway, want to congrat someone if he/she is reading this(ahem ahem), bring her out man! Gong xi gong xi=D As for those sad sad de, cheer up okay? As for those mood no good de, eat ice cream! Can cure de. I also missed my ice cream no wonder my mood no good.=D As for those i offended, sorry, I am in an unstable mood, sorry=D.

Today during night class, me ah net and ah xiao done something we ownself will never think of doing that before. Hehe, quite fun i can say. Anyway, Ah red thanks. You are a nice guy. Erm, tomorrow still must go to school. After that go out study then at night go cousin house bbq=D So happy. Hope my mood will be getting better.

Erm, so long never write nonsense le. Erm, let me think~ Never regret doing something. Learn from it. Never think it is impossible as nothing is impossible. Never give up easily, study hard=D Treasure your friends. Love em'=D I appreciated them. Let bygones be bygones(what is this?) lolx, okay la. Don't waste time le. Take good care people. Don't fall sick.

2004-08-13T22:03:00.000+08:00

Erm, last few days were boring. Forgotten what i had done. Only know went out with Xiaohui and Janet then eat, talk and take neoprints. Nothing much le. Today's lesson was boring. Zhang Feng Qi came to our school. I am mad as we were like so high, doing all those shouting, but i don't really like his dancing. His songs not bad. Cute and is 17 only. Just mad over him for one afternoon as he is the first singer who came to our school. After that went Carrie house watched The Sixth Sense. Kind of scary and sad, it is a nice show. Then went back to school for the night class. Quite okay as i did some of the A maths questions. Then went home, now blogging. So bored. Prelims coming. Anyway, got back our Chinese O level results=( ........

Love em

2004-08-10T20:02:00.000+08:00

Erm, didn't go out today. Actually wanted to go study with Xiao Hui and Janet but in the end lazy so stay at home. Had been eating for the whole afternoon, haiz.... Today is so boring man. Didn't study, spent my time reading books. Nothing to blog about. School starts tomorrow and i am still blogging here. Have not done my homework.... Everytime say want to study, in the end also never. Haiz.... don't know what the hell i want man..... Won't be blogging until friday i guess. Was packing my drawer and found many things. Those things will affect me in the past but not now anymore. I felt tired of everything going on. I must be motivated to study. I am not gonna let anything affect my studies. What am i talking about....

2004-08-09T21:57:00.000+08:00

Happy 39th Birthday Singapore!!!!!!!!

Haha, What a nice day.

In the morning, went to tuition for 3+ hours. After that went lunching at orchard. Then home.

After that went to National Stadium at 4+ with my dad to celebrate Singapore's birthday. It was so pack at Kallang. Almost all were wearing red. Seems so red today. The weather was extremely hot. Waited for 1 Hour before the pre parade start. TKSS band was great. The marching in parade were neat and smart. The commando rappellers were great too. They did the stunt, so trilling and scary.

Lin Jun Jie is cute. The way he rap out the song home was cute too. Great local artiste. The fireworks were great too. Very colourful and nice but it was short. It ended with video clips of Mr Goh Chok Tong. Kind of sad. After this National Day, he won't be a Prime Minister anymore. Sad. Anyway, after the end of the show. Lin Jun Jie sang but i missed it. Sad.

Anyway, this year National Day was great. Just like the previous years one.

2004-08-08T23:57:00.000+08:00

On the table of the graffiti cafe.

2004-08-08T22:52:00.000+08:00

National Day Eve=D

~ Didn't blog for the past few days. Nothing much happen. Yesterday went to TP to listen to talks then halfway run. Then went to Orchard walk walk. Slacked. Then went home. Today, early morning went tuition then home then tuition again. After that meet Janet and then went to Suntec City arcade to play. Then found the game which must whack the crocodile one. Then we keep playing cause so long never play le. Then Butti came after that then asked her to join us. So funny sia play till hands so pain. Then we used the tickets and changed some sweets. Seems like going back to the past. Enjoyable day. Then went to the Bridge and find a good spot for viewing of fireworks. So dangerous, everyone crossed the road like nobody business, but it was fun. Then sat at the side of the road. The Fireworks were beautiful. Don't know how to describe. Kind of romantic too if you have a bf/gf. So those with bf/gf should go next week. But quite short, so fast finish le. Then went to slacked at cafe then chatted with Xiaohui, Janet and Butti. So funny. Was like laughing non stop. Saw quite a number of Manjusrians. Must go next week de. Think it will be nice as well. Erm, will be watching National Day tomorrow in the Stadium, so hope it don't rain man! Anyway, didn't study for days. BUt will work for it after holidays=D FOr the sake of the ice cream and myself i will!

Anyway,

Happy Birthday Singapore=D!

2004-08-06T20:41:00.000+08:00

Erm, didn't blog yesterday, so tired. Yesterday was Heartstrings Day, not bad la. Quite fun walking around, taking pictures and playing with henna. Didn't have lessons for almost the whole day. Pe quite boring at first but was fun in the end. Went for tuition after finishing project B(finally no need to touch F&N project le=D) Tuition was fun today. Though i don't know the people there but they quite lame. Playing with baby hamsters.....

As for today, we celebrated National Day today. So there is no lesson at all. Haha, then the concert not bad la. The CCAs group did a great job. Missed the year in sec 2 when we performed too and also the handsome guest of honour that year 2002 i think. Before the concert end, we all stand and and start shouting, singing. So fun. Then after that wait for 4g girls as we were going to watch The Village. Played around at the carpark, took pictures with Ah red and the girls. Then went to Cineleisure to catch the movie. The movie not at all horror i can say, but i was like shouting most of the time= Though the movie not very nice but the story line is kind of nice. Quite sad and touching too. After that went to Pacific Plaza then Far East Plaza shop shop then walk around, slack around then went off to Heeren to shop. Found a place and sat down as we were all so tired. Then started chatting and again playing with henna. Then after that went home le. Quite fun today.

Tomorrow still have to go Temasak Polytechnics for the O level thingy.......

2004-08-04T19:28:00.000+08:00

..... Haiz, sick of this bloody weather. So bloody hot and the bus i took was without air-con. Making me hot like shit. Due to this bloody weather, I have no mood to study man. Was slacking in the room for hours reading a book instead of studying. Nothing to blog to, only know today's lesson seems so short. Tomorrow lesson will be even shorter. Hope there is PE tomorrow, missed last week PE......

Happy Birthday Butti~ Enjoy your day=D

2004-08-03T19:08:00.000+08:00

......................................................... Don't really feel like blogging but i got nothing to do. Haiz, sometimes i just don't understand what the hell am i thinking man. I can't be alone man, i gonna go insane if i am kept alone. Argh! Sick me! I don't know la!!!!! Wasn't very happy ever since this year but think things kind of improve after some thoughts and some advices and talks from my friends. Erm, without them i think i will still be the same old irritating me. Love em' A moment i am happy and next moment i am unhappy. This is what i am recently. Maybe it's just due to stress or something. Who cares? Anyway, i must study real hard for my maths. I used to like that Ba zhan but now i think she kind of sucks. The way she look down on people and the way she laugh at things which isn't funny, i think she is not as good as what i think she was last time. I am a hypocrite as i still as her about maths but the way she gave the answer, i hate it. I think i should be feeling glad that she isn't teaching me A maths anymore. Though i may be look down by some but i don't care anymore. Now i must study hard and proof her i can do better and whatsoever. Os coming is less than 90 days i think, and now i start to panick. I hate last minute work but i am still doing it. Aiya, whatever it is, do what i should, what i wanted and study as hard as possible..................................................................

2004-08-02T18:50:00.000+08:00

School was boring today. Early in the morning so cold man. It's raining when i woke up. First period Social Studies go Humans lab. Missed the lab, so long never been there already. Then E maths lesson go through paper, careless mistakes getting lesser than before. So i must continued not to be careless but i still will be careless. What the hell am i talking about? English lesson was super boring. The class was so noisy and Mrs Chan is kind of angry or pissed. Then A maths went to Mrs Teo class. Though the teaching is kind of basic and slow but still alright la. Revise again no harm. Then Chemistry was doing the practical. So messy then keep doing the wrong thing. Then broke a test tube. Then lesson end after cleaning.

So bored!!!!! There is night class tonight, but i didn't turn up as i am kind of lazy and my house is also a place for me to study. Will be going next week i guess. Stop blogging and off to study le......

2004-08-01T19:30:00.000+08:00

Boring~

Erm, boring day..... Went tution. After that slacked whole day at Aunt's house. Watched television and eat. Never really study today. Wanted to study but in the end also never. Failure~ Erm, today got fireworks at Esplanade. Too bad my house here can't see. Life is like fireworks. So beautiful, colourful but it will end in seconds. So, this is what i think about life is. Beautiful but short. Wonder how beautiful tonight fireworks will be? Life is getting very very boring....

Boring~

2004-07-31T20:27:00.000+08:00

Erm, was feeling kind of bored at home and kind of miss my blog, so create again for fun. Erm, last few weeks wasn't feeling good. Something troubles me but everything is fine now. I realised i was real annoying for the past weeks. So people if i offended you i am sorry. Erm, now realised many things i didn't in the past. Sometimes things just don't go your way, but what to do? This is part of life. Just hope that everything is fine. Everything is fated, so i will let my days pass by me and enjoy every single moment then.

Erm, Block test just ended this week. Morning was the oral. I think i would fail as she only ask me one question for my conversation and i can't answer it properly. Never mind since it was over already. My Block test results cannot make it man! I knew i did badly. Didn't had enough practise and didn't study hard. After getting back the results, it's time for me to wake up and get serious already before it's too late.

Today went out with Xh and Net after Oral then go eat V8 then go Pacific Plaze shop shop. Passed by this shop which we went in quite a few times in the past. There is this guy dancing inside and we were like laughing and he turned outside and saw us. He seems embarassed i think. Then later on we went into the shop and he was like reading newspaper at a corner. So damn funny. Everytime go to that shop, sure will see that guy de. Quite cute though. Then saw this belt which i liked alot, but currently no money to buy, so sad. Then went to Far East, shop and realised the shoes i wanted to buy was gone. Argh, very unlucky sia. Thought that i could made up my mind but then that shoes was gone. Never mind, not fated. After that went to register for tution with my mum. Haiz, i last minute then start tuition also don't know got use a not. Hope it works out well. Finally get to eat Anderson Ice cream. I didn't eat that for a long time already. Kind of miss it, but it turns out pretty disappointed to me. It's not as nice as before. May be there is something wrong with my taste bud.

Then went home after that.....

Kind of miss blogging. So so long never really do so much typing already.